..............A Gratuitous Confession....................

Since two years I didn't had enough time to write any better things. My life became so natural, melodramatic,mechanical and mundane each and every Second. One of my friend who is interested in reading my posts(I consider she is the only one showing interest in reading my posts) has often asked me to write something which I believe is the greatest achievement in my life so far. Life had offered me plenty of opportunities,lots of courage,support and strength to face it which I was unable to utilise or not in the mood of utilising them productively. Ever since I had posted something earlier I did not find anything so gripping and inspiring to put it on. Mind you I don't dare to say that my earlier posts or interesting or not but may be a little candid. I often feel that its better not to pen unless its extremely captivating for the readers(if any).


Literally speaking I have experienced so many strong emotions such as Grief, Misery, Atonement and Success in this period without my knowledge of the surroundings. It gave me a superlative pleasure whenever I failed during an attempt towards my career. Finally I got a break through not because I am truly intelligent or dedicated but since I am compromising and least demanding.I came across in-numerous extremists during the course of building my career who tried to exploit every single available source to its best with their limited apprehension. I often wondered why people stick to their profession but couldn't get appropriate answer for that. When I was lonely and grief stricken romancing with my life I came to realize that profession is one such thing which simulates our psyche keeping us away from distractions. Due to this very reason I tried hard to concentrate on my profession but in vain since my knowledge is poor and my scope is limited by radicals. I have written many useless quotations and reasons for my behaviour in almost every social networking site that I came across and hence exhausted by doing so. But confessing a crime after committing and admitting a mistake after doing doesn't resolve the issue at once. This fact is well known all over the world and the people who use it are all inclined towards rationalizing the circumstances so as to be benefited by them.

I was so helpless and frustrated at times and went to an extent of virtually intruding many lives. During my earlier encounters towards a bright Career I had a very good relation and acquaintance with Hyderabad and some pals. All of a sudden a sudden everything seemed to be dull and dimwitted with the advent of new profession into my career which made me often depressed. Initially I was astonished by the capricious behaviour of the individuals in pairing up but to be practical its the best thing to stay away from loneliness. It was then that I realised what my ambition is, where and when to initiate it.

Generally egotism or selfishness arises out of the fear that Individuals may be helpless by anyone during senile or other stages which makes them self centered. These kind of people can never be called selfish since its basic survival instinct of living being based on the fact Survival of the Fittest.If everybody on earth knows the other person this egotism can be Vanished. There Comes this concept and my Life time Ambition "INTEGRATION OF LIFE" . It seemed a bit awkward and incomprehensible whenever somebody heard this due to lack of proper establishment of a my genuine Intention. Often I think that everybody has to spend some time with themselves so as to understand their real need for existence on earth. Think Over it. It may be Helpful or Useless. :)